See ya, can't wait to meet ya

See ya, can't wait to meet ya

Ok,so this blogging once a week thing isn't really cutting it and I really feel inadequate without the visuals. I am one of those people that are just expressing themselves visually. Words are incoherent to me without pictures sometimes. I'm going to lay off posting until I get my camera and can really start in corporating my life in this blog. I'll be posting again next month,for sure!

Somewhere In a Far Off Destination

Somewhere In a Far Off Destination

I feel these days as if I'm living with little purpose in the present. My life feels bittersweet as if I'm missing something and to be honest, I have no idea. It feels as if my days are all starting to blur together. The worst thing is that I've felt this way as long as I can remember. I live day to day just hoping the day will be over and that I can have another break from school or from the social aspects of life.Why social?It's just that so many people have gone in and out of my life and with them went a piece of my heart and a part of my trust. I want to meet people and I love learning about them but how can I when so many have let me down?Human relations are so awkward and I feel it with every conversation or gesture I make with other people. I'm still trying to figure out if it's just me or the world.
School is tiring and I hate going. I have a small group of friends that I adore but I always feel the need to be better than I am. I'm pretty quiet in school,definitely not the most outgoing of the bunch.It's going to change but it doesn't change the fact that there are people I don't care to see and work I don't want to do. Honestly, theres nothing much to do about it except to live it out. In less than two years I'll be graduating from highschool and I have no idea what I want to do. All my life I thought I wanted to do art, but now I'm questioning myself. I've always loved it because I'm good at it but I don't really create at home. However, I create art at school and at my job. I think my job is one of my most cherished things. It's not everyday you love a place you work at. I won't have this job forever either but I'm excited to go other places, too.
I know that being an artist is hard but I had thought it and decided I would work my ass off and achieve my dreams. But now, other thoughts have been tugging at my mind. Will I really make it? How long will it be? How will I make it with all these amazing artists?How do I deal with the competitiveness?Will I be a nobody all my life? I know the answer to these questions and I'm going to reassure myself that of course I can make it. It's all about hard work and determination. I have to network,too, and while it won't be easy, it's a challenge worth taking. As long as I stay true to my art, it will be original. No one is exactly like you no matter what you think and no one is really all that original anymore. Life's way too short and I overthink things way too much. It's time to cut a little slack so I could breathe and actually live instead of being a slave to the pessimism and fear I hold. It sounds so corny but with ultimately I can only make myself happy and I have to treat myself well. No eating garbage, no thinking barbage, and no talking garbage.Life, Here I come.

PS,
(ALL PICTURES ARE COURTESY OF LOMOGRAPHY, MEANING THEY'RE NOT MINE- JUST IN CASE!)

It's A Wrap

It's A Wrap

Yesterday I received the skirt of my dreams and unfortunately it wasn't exactly a dream. So sad because I loved the print. However,it was shorter than I expected and the size was actually to big in the waist.That isn't too bad but the main concern was the fabric. It was wayyy lighter than I thought and super clingy. Still cute,just not worth 58 bucks.So that's off to the mailbox...

Next purchase? Something from piperlime! I always spend time drooling over clothes and shoes online so when I saw that Ms.Shoo from SheBreathes was doing a piperlime giveaway, I entered in a hearbeat and I won!Really exciting stuff considering the last time I won something was probably when I was 10(a stuffed seal at the local fair ,haha.) But yes, SheBreathes is an awesome blog with an awesome layout showcasing designers and artists that you may not have seen before. I've found many a designer's work that I love due to this site. It's pure eye candy so take a visit!(screenshot:taken from shebreathe's website)

($65.00, necklush ultra)
And speaking of sites, I love to visit and drool over, can I say that I love Etsy?I have a infinite list of favorite things but right now I'd really like a Necklush: ($40.00,necklush - natural with magenta print)

This would do double duty as a necklace/scarf for me. They're available in a nice varety of colors I love neck adornments for some reason- I have a bajillion necklaces and scarves(ok,exaggeration) taking up space in my closet but I'd still like more-the more, the merrier =)

No School, New Coat

No School, New Coat

As I sit here typing , I'm rejoicing in the fact that we have a snow day tomorrow. A break from school never hurts. I think this will be the fourth day off this school year due to a prediction of some major snow. It's the middle of winter and Spring is getting closer but in the meantime, I'm bundled up in my coat. Speaking of coats, I've been drowning in a sea of black peacoats. When 3/4 of the people on your train have this going on, the coats all look alike. I feel like it adds to the drearyness of my commute to and from school. A little bit of color never hurt nobody!I love you black, but I need some color to brighten up my day.I've been on a search for a bright coat to withstand the monotony of the black peacoat that every Bostonian seems to covet. If I don't find one in time for the rest of winter, I will definitely make up for it with a jacket in some blinding color for spring.I love these coats in the pictures but they are light years away from affordable as a broke high school student. But hey, a girl can and will continue to dream. Everything is from this lookbook . P.s- I would be crazy not to wear leggings or pants with the outfits that show bare legs.It's wayyy too cold for that right now!

Obsession

Obsession

I posted this skirt before but I'll post again,haha!

So today I made the trek all the way across town with a friend in search of this skirt...

And to my unfortunate luck,they didn't have them! See, normally I wouldn't worry this much about a piece of cloth but this skirt is a very wearable,precious piece of art. I kinda wanted to cry when I found out it wasn't there. I checked the website every single day and saw every size available. But noooo...not today. They only had a size 6,10, and 12! So I bought it in a 6 not very sure if it's going to fit. Motivation never hurts and I would seriously lose a couple pounds to fit in this. The minor (no, major) setback for me? I just blew 63 bucks including shipping. Booo...but at least I can focus in class now. I literally have five bucks in my pocket for the rest of the week now. Lesson of the day? Sometimes you need to just indulge in something you love or else you'll regret it-oh yeah, resist temptation of material objects or they'll be you downfall,haha =)

Also I am very much planning to get a Lomo Camera. I know they're just plastic and a bit overprice but imagine the possibilities! they're on sale for 40 bucks from 80 at urban outfitters and perhaps they're the cheapest that i'll ever get them for. Next paycheck? Yes,I think so.

(from wired.com and holga)

Happy Inauguration Day!

Happy Inauguration Day!

(The Infamous/Famous/Awesome Artwork from Shepard Fairey)

Hopefully(no pun intended) these next four years will be a time of change and good things to come this country. Today's inauguration affects everything from problems in our school's budget cuts to how I feel personally. There was and is a lot of hype on Obama but I hope it will not just be hype.Here's to four years of Barack!

Day 3

Day 3

(my self -portrait for art class)

The two classes I look forward to everyday at school?Study and Art-those probably don't even count as real subjects.Wait...I like english,too! so that does count...